Just Jeri

I am either new to obsessive compulsive behavior or maybe menopause/aging has something to do with why I get upset over stupid little things. I have become obsessed about the way the dishwasher is filled and the way the dishes are put away in the cupboard! WHY? I have no idea!! When anyone fills the dishwasher and I go to put something in it and see that they have not done it MY way..I re-do it! WHY???? I don’t know. I just can’t help it. To make it worse, I can’t stand it when the cups are put away wrong. Or the glasses! I move them from one cupboard or shelf to another and arrange the handles so they are all going the same way! Is that the weirdest thing ever? I actually get annoyed when I see they have not gotten a clue as to how it is supposed to be done! I mutter to myself as I re-do it! WTF?! I woke up early this morning..4am (you don’t want to know why..)..and I went to get a cup out of the cupboard. Stared at the mess in the cupboard. ALL those cups put away wrong!! WHAT??! OMG! I stop what I am doing and fix everything the way it should be!! MY WAY! Then go on to get coffee. Now as I sit here writing this I wonder…Is there something wrong with me? I should just be happy that the dishwasher was emptied and filled again. Right?! RIGHT!!! Jeesh..get over it!

Woke up today…..stumbled into the bathroom and washed my face.  I always put lotion on my face after washing it and also on my hands.  I looked down at my hands while rubbing in the lotion and stopped.  Looked at my hands a little closer.  Thought to myself.. Who’s hands are these? They are not MY hands. These old looking wrinkly age spot hands. WHO’S HANDS ARE THESE? I screamed inside my head!  OMG!  WTF is going on here?  THESE are NOT my hands.  Not MY hands!! I stared at them for what seemed like 20 minutes.  I’m still young I said to myself.  “I’m still young” I said out loud as I walked out of the bathroom door.  Straight over to the couch where my laptop sits on the table.  Straight on to Sephora…yes..I need this lotion.  I do!  I want/need “Hands That Lie” lotion.

Yesterday I received two boxes in the mail from my daughter Jenny. FULL to the brim with make up! Lip gloss, mascara, eye shadow, brushes, nail polish, and enough lotion to last us a couple of years! Literally a ton of stuff. I of course took what I wanted before the girls got home from school! Karlynn and Kendyl went through it all when they got home. I limited Kendyl’s as she is only 12! Plus, they don’t allow the kids to wear make-up in elementary school. I let her have one mascara, a couple of eye shadows, a few lip glosses. some lotion and a small roll on of perfume. We had the talk about no make-up allowed at school (again). I told her she could wear lip gloss and that’s it. Sooooo, this morning as everyone was getting ready for school I was sitting on the couch surfing the net on my laptop. Kendyl came out of the bathroom and Karlynn said “Uhhhh…MOM….” Then it all started. Brian looked at her and said “Jeri..you better get over here and take care of this!” I went into the bathroom and there is Kendyl…eye shadow, mascara, lip gloss, blush…all over her face. Mind you, she didn’t do too bad a job but it was definitely noticeable!! I washed it all off and asked her what she was thinking when she knows that she can’t wear make-up to school! She replied….”I didn’t think you would notice.” HAHAHAHAHA LMAO!! Needless to say she was none to happy about me removing it (roughly..with a washcloth!!)

Ho hum…another day in the King household!!

OMG..it’s been forever since I last wrote anything!  I have been through a lot in the last 7 months.  Lost my job, almost lost my marriage, gained some weight because of stress…blah, blah, blah.  Well no more pity party for me!  It is back on again!  I am now faithfully back on Weight Watchers.  I need to shed this weight. 2010 is going to be my life renewed.  Our house is up for sale.  Yes, the housing market sucks..so we are going to lower the price..sell and get the hell outta dodge.  No jobs here so off we go..somewhere that we can get back into the stream again!!  I’m scared..and excited!!  Time to pump some life back into these bones!!

It’s ON baby!!! 

Just read this article regarding a twitterer getting sued.  Whatch what you say when twittering!!!  You never know who’s reading along….. 

Woman sued over tweet about mold….

http://realestate.msn.com/blogs/listedblogpost.aspx?post=1207195

So..let’s not even go there on how long it’s been since I wrote something.  No one is reading this anymore (not that I had much of a following yet anyway) but, I am still going to write.  It’s good for the soul.  Sometimes you just need someone to talk to and there is no one available. Writing in my blog is a great way to relieve the stress of ones life.

Well, I have a lot going on right now.  First, I am getting divorced.  Yes, I know…that sucks.  But, some things are meant to be and this one is definitely meant to be.  Yes, the alcoholism has destroyed us.  I just have nothing left in me to continue this marriage.  On the good side, I am once again feeling good about myself.  I am losing weight, I am joining a gym.  I am no longer going to let myself lay around like a lump on a log with a remote in my hand.  I need to be alive again.  I am feeling alive again.  There is a small part inside that the light is getting into and I like it.  I like it a lot!  I suspect in about 3 months I am going to be a damn happy, almost sexy woman again!

Secondly, our house is finally on the market.  What a nightmare.  Trying to clean up a house full of everything imaginable is a friggin’ nightmare!  I just don’t know how one family can accumulate so much shit in 4 years.  WTF?!  The husband has painted, packed, fixed and done a LOT of work to get it on the market.  I applaud him for that.  He has worked his ass off.  It’s taken almost 7 months but there was MUCH to do.  The kids are doing their part too!  Now that is shocking.  I bought them all new laptops for their hard work!  (Except for Kendyl…. she’s 11 for Christ’s sake!)  She got an old one!   Anyway, I am hoping even though the market (sucks…thanks Obama!)..that my house will be the “special” one that catches someones eye and sells before winter.  I want so badly to be out of here by winter.  To have no bills…and to move into town.  At least closer to town.  I still don’t want to live in a damn neighborhood.  I don’t think I could handle the noise after living here in “po-dunk” with only cricket, frog, bird, coyote, elk, and Billy sounds!

Well, I will keep you posted on my journey back into life!  I am excited! It’s been a long time since I have been excited!